If you’ve read my previous posts, you know that I’ve been hitting a few road blocks along my job search journey. Last week didn’t prove to be any better. I was rejected by three jobs and forced to start back at square one.
I broke down in frustration and began to doubt my ability and my training. Cashiers, NC is not my favorite place on Earth, so I was hoping one of those jobs would be my way out. My escape.
But God has a different plan.
“How fickle my heart and how woozy my eyes
I struggle to find any truth in your lies
And now my heart stumbles on things I don’t know
My weakness I feel I must finally show.”
As soon as I heard these words I broke down in tears.
It’s true, at this moment in my life I feel extremely vulnerable and weak. Graduating from college and coming into the real world has been like whiplash.
After pulling myself together, clarity set in and I began to think: is showing our weaknesses really such a bad thing?
I’ve never met a perfect person, including myself, ever. I think there’s something extraordinarily beautiful about being imperfect.
As the song continued to blare, I felt full of hope.
“In these bodies we will live, in these bodies we will die
where you invest your love, you invest your life…”
“Awake my soul
Awake my soul
Awake my soul
For you were born to meet your maker.”
At this moment of the car ride God really grabbed my attention. It’s almost as though I could actually hear him speaking. He said, “let go!”
How often do we hang onto situations and people we have absolutely no control over? I know I do it all the time. But the really beautiful thing is, we have the ability to let go of it all.
We are free to invest our love, time, and money into people and things that awake our souls and give us life. Rather than sulking in my pride and my self-doubt, I want to grab onto the hope that is found only in God.
The story of my life is just beginning to unfold. It’s going to be a beautiful one, I can feel it.
How do you let go of things you can’t control?